Now I have a different anxiety. I am nervous about the surgery itself. That sense of losing total control as people cut into you and take things out. It is frightening. However, I look at it like this. I can't hang on to this thyroid any longer or the cancer could really spread. What is widely considered a relatively easy cancer to deal with could , without surgery, become much more complicated and dangerous to get rid of. So surgery wins out - hands down.
I have to be at the hospital in Lisbon on Monday morning. Apparently, I was originally suppose to be scheduled for Tuesday but the surgeon wants to try to do it on Monday instead as there will be a nurses' strike on Tuesday. Obviously that is a bit disconcerting...this nurses' strike. I wonder who will be looking after me on Tuesday. I just hope that the surgery does not get moved to Tuesday! I consider myself a rather high-needs patient. I want someone at my beck and call in case I get hungry or thirsty. Or perhaps like Eddie from Absolutely Fabulous, I will just 'want total sensory deprivation and back-up drugs!' :) Either way, I prefer a full staff of nurses workng during my stay. Call me selfish.
Anyway...speaking of selfish again, I am open to anyone or everyone sending your good healing energy my way come Monday. I very much believe in the power behind the energy that connects all of us. So, please do save the date!